Like autumn air breathing change into the tree leaf colors was God’s word speaking-breathing a new season for my heart. Early fall I was studying scripture and the Spirit whispered quietly, wait. I wrote the word in my journal and tucked it away. Day after day, the word grew louder, like a megaphone pushing against my soul with the word WAIT echoing. I jotted down my thoughts and said, okay, Lord, I will wait.
Through the fall season I’d come to believe the word wait was in regards to our infertility but I’ve come to see the Lord was preparing me for a much larger waiting story. It’s now I see how the Lord truly goes before and prepares the way for the days ahead. This past fall he prepared my soul for the waiting period I am in.
Here I sit, not only waiting for a miracle but for clarity and doors to open in our life. When the Lord spoke “wait” I never imagined I would be waiting in every aspect of our life for God to move, but hey who really imagines this would be there life? I am sure no one. In this unfamiliar territory I know I am called to walk in obedience to one thing–waiting on HIM to move. He has asked us to simply sit and patiently wait upon Him. I’ve learned it takes courage and trust to do this. To name just a few, here are 3 areas I am waiting, waiting, waiting…
– 3.5 years of infertility and in obedience aren’t pursuing any treatments– we patiently wait for the miracle.
-My husband is currently unemployed (or as we call it retirement because all young people come to Portland to retire.) — we patiently wait for a job, a career path, direction.
-We live in a very temporary house situation unsure where we are supposed to move next– we patiently wait for a location, a place to live.
In these circumstances, he’s not called me to wait and grumble or wait and give up or wait in discouragement. As a child of God, I am called to wait in HOPE. He’s called me to be still and know he is God during this season. (ps 46:10)
It’s so easy to go out and in our manmade strength in attempts to make things happen quickly. I mean, this IS America– where we move fast and patience isn’t a character trait. This is very much Branden and I’s personalities–making things happen. I know this would be the easiest answer to all the waiting, but I know we would shortchange the miracles of God- stealing His glory… I don’t want to get in the way of God’s glory.
I want to be like Abraham, “And so after waiting patiently, Abraham received what was promised.” To be like Abraham I have daily step aside in obedience and wait. I wait patiently. Patiently I wait for Him to hear our cries and move mountains. Every day I pray and wait expectantly that today might be the day, the day miracles happen.
Join me in waiting…
Below I wanted to share a few (not all) the verse the Lord used in a matter of a week to speak wait over me.
Wait patiently for the Lord. Be brave and courageous. Yes, wait patiently for the Lord.
Be still before the Lord and wait patiently for him; Psalm 37:7
I say to myself, “The Lord is my portion; therefore I will wait for him.” Lamentations 3:24
And so after waiting patiently, Abraham received what was promised. Hebrews 6:15
Blessed is the one who perseveres under trial because, having stood the test, that person will receive the crown of life that the Lord has promised to those who love him. James 1:12
Be patient, then, brothers and sisters, until the Lord’s coming. See how the farmer waits for the land to yield its valuable crop, patiently waiting for the autumn and spring rains. 8 You too, be patient and stand firm, because the Lord’s coming is near. 9 Don’t grumble against one another, brothers and sisters, or you will be judged. The Judge is standing at the door! 10 Brothers and sisters, as an example of patience in the face of suffering, take the prophets who spoke in the name of the Lord. 11 As you know, we count as blessed those who have persevered. You have heard of Job’s perseverance and have seen what the Lord finally brought about. The Lord is full of compassion and mercy James 5:7-11