The last 2 years as we have approached July 25th, I have become so introspective and can’t stop crying. Not tears of sadness, rather, tears of joy and worship. My heart is overwhelmed. Too much joy to contain in my heart.
I am thankful for 2 glorious, fun years as their mother. And even on some of the hard days, I still give thanks, because they are gifts. Infertility made me appreciate life. 6 years of waiting... made me see how miraculous life really is. That God really is the Creator – breathing life into their souls. God, He is the Life-Giver.
To my Sweet, Brooklyn Rene & Eliana Grace,
On your 2nd Birthday, I wanted to share these words from my heart.
Your lives, they are 6 years of prayers fulfilled. 6 hard fought years of walking in Faith, believing one day we would get to meet you. 2 years earth-side, and those 6 years wanting you haven’t left me.
May you always know how loved, longed and wanted you are.
For me, your Birthday is sacred, deeply spiritual, and full of joy.
July 25th, 2015 moves my soul in emotional waves. The day I got to hold your tiny little, 5 lb and 4 lb bodies against my chest and feel your hears beating alive was a moment that somedays I never believed would happen. Yet, because of faith, and not giving up Hope, I got to hold you in my arms July 25, 2015. Your Birthday is a day I stand and worship God. For your lives are pictures of God’s faithfulness–your lives, fingerprints of God. And I come undone before your Maker for creating you.
On your Birthday I sing in adoration and proclaim these words over your life,
“Oh yes, you shaped Brooklyn & Elaina first inside, then out;
you formed Brooklyn & Eliana in [my] womb.
I thank you, High God—you’re breathtaking!
Body and soul, Brooklyn & Eliana are marvelously made!
I worship in adoration—what a creation!
You know Brooklyn & Eliana inside and out,
you know every bone in my body;
You know exactly how Brooklyn & Eliana was made, bit by bit,
howBrooklyn & Eliana were sculpted from nothing into something.
Like an open book, you watched Brooklyn & Eliana grow from conception to birth;
all the stages of my life were spread out before you,
The days of my life all prepared
before I’d even lived one day.
Your thoughts—how rare, how beautiful!
God, I’ll never comprehend them!
I couldn’t even begin to count them—
any more than I could count the sand of the sea.
Oh, let me rise in the morning and live always with you!”
Ps 139 (emphasis mine)
Brooklyn Rene, Eliana Grace, you are God’s masterpieces, created for a purpose. You are gifts, and I was blessed with the opportunity to be your mama and prepare you for living in this Kingdom Life God has for you.
Brooklyn & Ellie, your names always remind me, you are our fresh rivers in our desert of suffering, where God saw and heard our prayers, and answered us. He answered us with you.
Girls, sweet girls, may you walk with fire in your bones that you are here for a purpose. May you live with courage and boldness as you share your story. And as you share, I pray you may see people come to know the saving Power of Jesus, and I believe you will because God is so faithful.
Happy Birthday Brooklyn & Ellie. I love you so, may you always know you have my heart.