Type-A. The personality description that’s usually placed on first-borns and I am no exception. I am a planning, hard working, to-do list living, know where I am going girl. It fuels me and often gives me purpose in my day because I’m constantly looking ahead and then planning the necessary steps to get there. Oh the deep satisfaction of crossing out lines on my to-do list, accomplishing all that’s set before me. Type-A friends…who’s with me? 🙂
I could always see ahead and make plans accordingly then, like a white sheet dropping down before my eyes, my vision became blind. I lost my sight for my life. I only could see a blank white canvas, the brightly painted future upon the canvas went missing.
And this began frustrating me…Why can’t I see ahead? What happened to my vision for my life? Where is my future? Why can I only see today?
Many days I poured out my complaint before the Lord, “God I can’t see… I can’t see anything ahead. God, where are we going??”
Through His word, he quietly reminded me.
I lost my sight because I am to live by faith. Trusting in Him alone, not in my vision.
My vision for life went blank, forcing my hands to lay down my paint brushes and paint and hold the hand of my Creator, the true painter of my canvas- my life.
Every moment lived by faith, forces me to trust my Creator with His ultimate vision for my life.
Faith is being sure of what we HOPE for and certain of what we do not see. (Hebrews 11:1)
Being certain of what I do not see doesn’t come naturally, but I choose to rejoice in my blind vision. Because death of my sight means true life in Christ….more faith, more believing, and more trusting in Him.
For we are called to walk by faith, not by sight. (2 cor. 5:7) and He’s brought me to a place of living in utter dependence upon Him, walking only by faith.
God blinded my sight of seeing ahead to bring me to a place of living by believing and not by seeing. (2 Corinthians 5:7 nlt)