My heart and mind reads truth over and over and I fight to make sense of the divine scriptures.

I come to Him weary and burden. Exhausted and fatigued from wrestling with the truth and promises of God with circumstances.

I read verses like these,

Take delight in the Lord, and he will give you your heart’s desires. Psalm 37:4

Trust in the Lord with all your heart, and do not lean on your own understanding. In all your ways acknowledge him, and he will make straight your paths. Proverbs 3:5

And I don’t get it. It seems so simple–cut and dry. Yet, when tested, its complex and difficult.

I battle letting go. Just resting in who He is.

I believe. I stand on the Word. It is my solid rock.

But there are times, like this week, when my heart feels like it’s sinking.

Engulfed by sorrow I contend with scripture.

My head aches because it’s makes no sense to me.

It’s then I have to let go and cry out.

1 Hear my cry, O God;

   listen to my prayer.

2 From the ends of the earth I call to you,

   I call as my heart grows faint;

   lead me to the rock that is higher than I.

 4 Let me live forever in your sanctuary,

 safe beneath the shelter of your wings!

(psalms 61)

Do you relate? Have you wrestled with scripture? I’d love to hear from you!