Sunday mornings our voices rise like insense, together forming a beautiful choir proclaiming love to our King. Then comes the one short line that strikes a chord in my soul each time it falls from my lips. This line is penned by Robert Robinson’s in his hymn “Come Thou fount of Every Blessing.” The one line where my heart cries out, “Prone to wander, Lord, I feel it, Prone to leave the God I love.” One simple line that leaves me in tears. I identify. I ache. I repent. I worship.
“Prone to wander, Lord, I feel it, Prone to leave the God I love.”
In my readings my eyes fall upon the pages that tell the story of the Israelites. It is in Exodus and Deuteronomy I keep finding myself. This girl who loves Jesus is prone to wander, prone to leave the God I love and adore.
Prone to walk away from the God who
“When the people realized that Moses was taking forever in coming down off the mountain, they rallied around Aaron and said, “Do something. Make gods for us who will lead us. That Moses, the man who got us out of Egypt—who knows what’s happened to him?” Exodus 32:1
I am like the Israelites. Impatient. Wants control. Demanding. -Prone to Wander
“How quickly they have turned away from the way I commanded them to live! They have melted down gold and made a calf, and they have bowed down and sacrificed to it.” Exodus 32:8
I am like the Israelites. Taking my eyes of my King. Quickly forgetting the way God commands me to live–Prone to Wander, Prone to leave the God I LOVE.
“Don’t be terrified of them. God, your God, is leading the way; he’s fighting for you. You saw with your own eyes what he did for you in Egypt; you saw what he did in the wilderness, how God, your God, carried you as a father carries his child, carried you the whole way until you arrived here….” Deuteronomy 1:29-31
I am like the Israelites. Fearful. Scared. Forgetting who is leading the way. Forgetting God is my Father who carries me the whole way– Prone to Wander.
“But even after all he did, you refused to trust the Lord your God, who goes before you looking for the best places to camp, guiding you with a pillar of fire by night and a pillar of cloud by day.” Deuteronomy 1:32
I am like the Israelites. Lacking in trust. Lacking in faith. Forgetting all HE has done for me–Prone to wander Lord I feel it.
My selfish heart rears it’s ugly face. I look into the mirror and reflect, this sinner is saved by grace lest I not forget.
Grace I do not deserve. His mercies new every morning.
As quickly as the Israelites forget the goodness of their God. I too forget His goodness.
I forget the baby in a manger born to Mary and Joseph. Jesus coming to earth as a man. To live, to die. For me, for you.
I wander from grace.mercy.love.redemption.
Forgetting His love poured out upon a cross for me, His beloved child. I lose sight of love on a cross. I quickly forget, He conquered the grave. Death has been defeated. Eternity awaits. This is not my home.
I deperately need Him.
Early morning dawns, I turn my gaze upon Him. Fixing my heart upon his unconditional love. Remembering all He has done for me.
I write His truth. I meditated upon his Word. I bind these Holy words close to me.
“Fix these words of mine in your hearts and minds; tie them as symbols on your hands and bind them on your foreheads…. Write them on the doorframes of your houses and on your gates,” Dueteronomy11:18,20
Join me as together we pray, plead and sing out…..
“Bind my wandering heart to Thee…here’s my heart, O take and seal it, seal it for thy courts above.”
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